former ghost will be playing
at SODA BAR
in san diego on
october 1 at 9pm
thank you Z!

it’s no longer love but he still hurts me. through everything, the newfound absence of everything i wished it could be. we cradle each other with white lies. there’s no more need for big lies as he no longer loves me.
i would refuse, but i don’t want to be difficult. i can hold so much when everything is so light.
and this way, we keep denying that we make mistakes.
and this way, it’ll never pass.

“the pills that she swallowed were mine. they were pills prescribed to me because i couldn’t sleep. with as much thoughtfulness as she showed me in her life, she left one behind in the vial. presumably, it would be hard for me to sleep the night we found her.
i have never slept better.”
-amy hempel

hello~
i (being jamie from xiu xiu) am playing in another band with freddy ruppert called
“former ghosts” we have a record coming out oct 20th on
upset the rhythm to be called “fleurs”
we will be on tour ASAP and specifically during thee dates below.
http://formerghosts.blogspot.com/
see also the above

10-02 Phoenix, AZ – Trunk Space
10-03 Tucson, AZ – Solar Culture
10-05 Austin, TX – Mohawk Inside
10-06 Houston, TX – Orange Show
10-07 Mobile, AL – Alabama Music Box
10-08 Atlanta, GA – Drunken Unicorn
10-09 Durham, NC – Duke Coffeehouse
10-10 Washington, DC – Comet Ping Pong
10-11 Wilkes Barre, PA – Cafe Metropolis
10-12 Philadelphia, PA – First Unitarian Church Chapel
10-13 New York, NY – Monkey Town
10-14 Boston, MA – Middle East Upstairs
10-15 Montreal, Quebec – Il Motore
10-16 Toronto, Ontario – Whippersnapper
10-17 Chicago, IL – Andrew Rafacz Gallery
10-21 Vancouver, British Columbia – Media Club
10-22 Spokane, WA – Empryean Coffee House
10-23 Seattle, WA – Vera Project
10-24 Portland, OR – Lewis and Clark
10-27 Merced, CA – The Partisan
10-28 San Francisco, CA – Hemlock
10-29 San Jose, CA – Works Gallery
10-30 San Luis Obispo, CA – Arts Center
10-31 Los Angeles, CA – Synchronicity Space

more than a few times i have wished that my rotten little town of durham, NC would
be destroyed by a fire storm.
but today something great happened. i did not know this but the entire state of north carolina
has
held its queer pride parade in my rotten little town for the last 25 years. there were hand made sign attesting to this fact taped to the light poles.
i went today and it was wonderful. there were several thousand people there and only about 20 protesters.
people just ignored them or started to dance to house music behind them. the bigoty protesters seemed sad and unenthusiastic as they had lost so badly today. they did not even make me mad as i was so exploded with the joy of queerness. for once, durham, ahem, i like you.
i saw 2 men. one was white, clearly from the country, maybe 25 at most, with a man who was black, clearly from the country, maybe 50 at the youngest. the older man was shyly holding the younger man’s arm so they would not be separated in the crowd as they walked along. this was on my street. it was beautiful.

the ryan white care act, which is the top source of funding for hiv/aids treatment across the nation, it’s set to expire in a little over a week.

william made drawings and paintings from photographs shot on the last tour-photo-project.