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a tummy filed with donuts
is that why are you so rotten?
i wish i was dead and i wish you were dead
in your betrayal of jubilation
in your betrayal of good spirit
nothing can explore your silly, shallow holes because
they are only two inches deep
nothing, only a child’s green drum stick
grip my freakishly small hand with your freakishly small hand
as i snap off the green drum stick
all that remains is the chill
now unable to ride on your tricycle
at least try to ring the bell
you are finally sad
not just angry
yet there is a complete and hyena’s meaninglessness
in what you sing and
in your life and
in your resentment
of being so incredibly short and
of having to wear children’s clothes and
of playing a toy drum set
so you will eat meat and fasten to the destruction of
the peaceful and massive cow before us
it is again another way to pack more bitterness down your throat
you sit on the toilet with
your feet not touching the floor and struggle to defecate
blood is on the toilet paper
the door is open a little so i can see you
4 feet 10 inches tall
you imagine to yourself,
“that there are dildos taller than me.”
adjust the mirror down in the hotel room every morning
and look at your unexpressive and pancake like cheeks
so all this embarrassing hope can stop
inside you are more jaundiced than even your parent’s generation and
outside you make as if to be overjoyed
with inane, inane, inane dance moves and a
smile, smile, smile
that must prove to Korea how natural it is for you
to maintain them with cheap beanish contempt
and oh you think,
“they look down on my
thrust to behave like a clown.
they look down on me
but i can poke fun at their grief.”
and of grief
the one man who could tolerate the love has quit it
you would never ever be touchable
you would never ever be nice
your imperiousness stamping your grape sized lust
your imperiousness carousing the earth like a pig

hi

auction #3 is a complete 13 disc set of the A.E.M. cd subscription series that was completed this summer. the discs are all unopened and unplayed and each contain a different leaf. this set includes the bonus disc.

the series began in 2009 as a year long, once a month (more or less, sorry) subscription of  ambient, experimental and minimalist music that was composed specifically for the series.

it was limited to 50 subscriptions and the music was only available through this series. it will never be repressed or reissued.

the bids start at $200 USD and closes on january 30th 2010.

please send bids to xiuxiuforlife@gmail.com under the subject heading

AEM set bid.

thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am thinking about the 10 biblical plagues on egypt

• 3.2 1. Plague of Blood (דָם): Ex. 7:14–25
• 3.3 2. Plague of Frogs (צְּפַרְדֵּעַ): Ex. 7:25–8:11
• 3.4 3. Plague of Gnats (כִּנִּים): Ex. 8:12–15
• 3.5 4. Plague of Wild Beasts (עָרוֹב): Ex. 8:20–32
• 3.6 5. Plague of Pestilence (דֶּבֶר): Ex. 9:1–7
• 3.7 6. Plague of Boils (שְׁחִין): Ex. 9:8–12
• 3.8 7. Plague of Hail (בָּרָד): Ex. 9:13–35
• 3.9 8. Plague of Locusts (אַרְבֶּה): Ex. 10:1–20
• 3.10 9. Plague of Darkness (חוֹשֶך): Ex. 10:21–29
• 3.11 10. Death of the Firstborn (מַכַּת בְּכוֹרוֹת): Ex. 11:1–12:36

and

this daddy knife and this suck it up knife

Tanto; Dual Thumb-Studs 9CR13 Stainless Steel Blade Black G10 Scales, Black Oxide Hardwarghe what are you thinking about?

it is snowing here and while driving back from having dropped angela off at the airport, her car, which i am borrowing, spun out. it spun in a complete circle on the freeway. but nothing bad happened. i was driving slowly and because it was here and no one lives here there were not very many cars on the road. i ended up on the shoulder and it was a little difficult to get the car moving forward but it only took a minute. i did not feel afraid. my adrenaline was way up but that was about it. that is afraid though i suppose? i put on the gospel station to say thank you to heaven that i made it out alive. that is afraid though i suppose as well.

this was at about 5:30 am so when i got home i went back to bed a tried to sleep a little. after i woke up i went for a walk to clear my mind and to try to get ready to start working on music. the sidewalk was very slippery. i saw two wild snow men running on the grass screaming out, “i know i’m unlovable!”

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next one up on dec 26

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