Xiu Xiu - Dear God I Hate Myself

At the Crossroads fundraiser

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Sun, 07 Mar 2010 15:30:00 +0000

Hello

While on tour, we are doing a fundraiser for At the Crossroads.

We are asking for donations of any amount, and there will be small but hopefully nice and desirable thank-you gifts.

$1 (show only): Everyone who donates a dollar or more at the show will get together at the end of the show for a big group picture. The band will then post these pictures online.

$5: The band will mail you a postcard, made by Xiu Xiu, sent while on the road.

$10: Xiu Xiu will email a one-of-a-kind picture of the band on the road and a description of what's going on before and after, not during.

$30: The band will mail you any random thing bought at a gas station, thrift store, or anywhere from the road.

$50: The band will mail you a special David Horvitz collection of Xiu Xiu photos.

If we reach a collective $5000 in donations, we will release a FREE download of a previously unreleased collaboration with Mary Pearson from High Places.

Also at the end of the fundraiser, we will read the name of every donor on camera and post the video online.

Please donate below or at the shows and Thank you so much!!!!!

See you all soon!

quote of an epoch

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Sat, 06 Mar 2010 14:29:00 +0000

"I have one pedal
and it is distortion." - angela seo

USA tour dates

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 02 Mar 2010 16:13:00 +0000

dear people of the most powerful nation in a state of extreme decline on the planet
xiu xiu is playing 1,000,000,000 shows
please look out below
we are playing with wonderful bands
girl in a coma
noveller
tune yards
johanthan meiburg of shearwater
scout niblett
zola jesus
talk normal
extra life
operative

5 - Greensboro, NC @ Guilford College
6 - Atlanta, GA @ Drunken Unicorn - w/ Noveller, Girl in a Coma
7 - Birmingham, AL @ The Bottletree - w/ Noveller, Girl in a Coma
9 - Little Rock, AR @ Sticky Fingerz Chicken Shack - w/ Noveller, Girl in a Coma
10 - Norman, OK @ Opolis Productions - w/ Noveller, Girl in a Coma
11 - Dallas, TX @ The Cavern - w/ Noveller, Girl in a Coma
12 - Houston, TX @ The Studio @ Warehouse Live - w/ Noveller
13 - Austin, TX @ Red 7 - w/ Noveller, Jonathan Mieburg of Shearwater
15 - Tempe, AZ @ Sail Inn - w/ Noveller
16 - Tucson, AZ @ Solar Culture - w/ Noveller, Extra Life
17 - San Diego, CA @ The Casbah - w/ Noveller, tUnE-yArDs
18 - Los Angeles, CA @ Echo - w/ Noveller, tUnE-yArDs
19 - Santa Cruz, CA @ The Crepe Place - w/ Noveller, tUnE-yArDs
20 - San Francisco, CA @ Bottom of the Hill - w/ Noveller, tUnE-yArDs
23 - Olympia, WA @ Northern - w/ tUnE-yArDs
24 - Portland, OR @ Holocene - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Operative
25 - Boise, ID @ Neurolux - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Scout Niblett
26 - Salt Lake City, UT @ Urban Lounge - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
27 - Denver, CO @ Hi-Dive - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
29 - Lawrence, KS @ Jackpot Saloon - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
30 - St Louis, MO @ Lemp Neighborhood Arts Center - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
31 - Iowa City, IA @ The Picador - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
April 2010
1 - Northfield, MN @ The Cave @ Carleton College - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
2 - Minneapolis, MN @ 7th Street Entry - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
3 - Chicago, IL @ Lincoln Hall - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal, Zola Jesus
5 - Oberlin, OH @ The Dionysus Discotheque - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
7 - Cleveland, OH @ The Spot - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Talk Normal
8 - Buffalo, NY @ Mohawk Place - w/ tUnE-yArDs
9 - New York, NY @ Bowery Ballroom - w/ tUnE-yArDs, Zola Jesus
10 - Cambridge, MA @ Middle East downstairs - w/ tUnE-yArDs
12 - Amherst, MA @ Hampshire College Dining Commons
13 - Philadelphia, PA @ First Unitarian Church - w/ tUnE-yArDs
14 - Washington, DC @ DC9 - w/ tUnE-yArDs
15 - Richmond, VA @ The Canal Club Downstairs Lounge - w/ tUnE-yArDs
16 - Chapel Hill, NC @ Local 506 - w/ tUnE-yArDs
17 - Detroit, MI @ Museum of Contemporary Art Detroit

dear God, i hate myself OUT

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 20:28:00 +0000

the new xiu xiu record
dear God, i hate myself
is released full on outside on earth.
it is making its way through the
stupid wilderness to find you,
wonderful you

Dear God, I Hate Myself released in UK

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 19:49:00 +0000

the new xiu xiu record
dear God, i hate myself
is released in the U.K.
as of TODAY

xiu xiu tour of UK will commence as of~

20 - Dublin, Ireland @ Whelans
21 - Glasgow, UK @ NiceNSleazy
22 - Edinburgh, UK @ Electric Circus
23 - Manchester, UK @ Islington Mill
24 - Sheffield, UK @ The Harley
25 - Cardiff, UK @ Cardiff Arts institute
26 - London, UK @ The Luminaire
27 - Brighton, UK @ Freebutt
28 - Coventry, UK @ Taylor John's House

thinking of you

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Mon, 15 Feb 2010 22:00:00 +0000

it gets amazing at about 3:00 minutes

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 03:31:00 +0000

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WeQjkQpeJwY

Strangers Marry After Same-sex Couple Denied License

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Thu, 11 Feb 2010 22:48:00 +0000

In an act of civil-sorta-disobediance, local LGBT activist Kitty Lambert received a marriage license to a stranger named Ed at Buffalo’s City Hall today, after being denied a license to marry her same-sex partner.

A small group gathered in the lobby before proceeding to the 13th floor. Entering the City Clerk’s office, Kitty and long-time partner Cheryl attempted to apply for a marriage license. Armed with the appropriate documents City employees informed them due to New York State law, they would be unable to grant them a license. As the clerk’s office employees gathered to watch, a tearful Lambert explained the benefits only available to straight couples with a marriage license.

With news cameras rolling, Kitty then turned to the crowd and asked for any male who would be willing to get married to her. A gay man named Ed stepped forward and volunteered. They briefly exchanged information and presented the appropriate documents along with $40. City staff verified the information, and proceeded to give them a marriage license.

Kitty’s point in approaching the City Clerk for a marriage license is that there is no religious basis for marriage, and it serves only as a legally binding contract in our society. Instead of being offered the ability to receive a license with her long-term partner, she was able to secure a license with a virtual stranger, strictly based on their gender.

via pinkbflo

DGIHM!

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Tue, 09 Feb 2010 05:09:00 +0000

New Xiu Xiu Album
Dear God I Hate Myself
is now out on itunes!
with TWO Bonus Tracks &
Lyrics & Liner Notes

Link to iTunes store

once more regarding the vomit

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 16:52:00 +0000

The video was my idea. Jamie didn't exploit me or coerce me or anything like that.

Although this was a while ago, I grew up around a lot of people who were bulimic. Well not just bulimic, but had a lot of various issues with self hatred that were expressed in a million various ways, including cutting and drug use. Although I still encounter all various sorts of self-loathing, perhaps because bulimia was the most visible, prevalent, and even normalized form of self-destruction at a very impressionable age, I will always think of it as a major form of self-hatred. There is also something very physically torturous and viscerally disturbing (aka gross!) about the act of vomiting that strikes my fancy, I guess.

I remember one night that one of my friends was completely fucked up on a few different drugs. Then she went through the pantry and fridge eating all kinds of shit. She'd then throw it up, eat more, throw up, eat more throw up. After a couple of hours of this, I told her that she was fucking stupid and dumb and left. I never saw her again, but found out she died a couple years later from overdose. I felt stupid and dumb for calling her pain stupid and dumb.

So yes, me vomiting my brains out on video was gross as hell and it made me feel like shit afterward. Those tears and the "what the fuck is going on" look is sincere. But just because I look like shit does not mean that I didn't have a choice in doing that.

I don't know why so many people are assuming that I didn't have any agency in making of this video. I guess because I'm a young Asian female? Or perhaps some people don't understand that one can voluntarily choose to hurt themselves physically. Maybe some think it's just so stupid and dumb that one had to have been forced to do it?

I apologize for the rambling, but I guess I'm just trying to say, please don't attack Jamie for anything. It was my idea and I chose with full agency, undrugged, uncoerced, to do it. Also, I guess I am trying to explain a little bit why such a gross and stupid act is my way of showing self-hatred -- but then again, when is an act of self-hatred ever not gross and stupid?

oxoxoxox
please direct personal attacks, reproaches, unfounded racists/sexist comments, exclamations of outrage to xiuxiuangela@gmail.com

birds play guitar

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 18:20:00 +0000

http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/thereporters/willgompertz/2010/02/40_wild_birds_play_a_gibson_le.html

hello trent

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 17:17:00 +0000

xiu xiu for life blood shirts

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 02:52:00 +0000

hi
if you ordered a xiu xiu for life blood shirt
it occurred to me that we did not ask for a size
please email
xiuxiuforlife@gmail.com
in the next 48 hours with you name and size

if we don't hear from you then you will get a an adult small or medium

thank you!!!!!

3rd single up on itunes

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 20:46:00 +0000

aloha
the 3rd single from the new xiu xiu record
Dear God, I Hate Myself
is out on itunes today it is called
This Too Shall Pass Away (for Freddy)
crouched in a thicket of bamboo, it will spring upon you!

the votes are in and complex news

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 02:07:00 +0000

hi
90% of people want and i quote
"shirts for everyone!!!!"
so more life draining effort on our part but we are
fucking weird ass perverts so it is ok
however
there are 46 total that were available and
again thank you so much but
in the three minutes that it was up
we got 54 pay pal orders in-
so a few people who paid will be getting their money back
and an apology from us.
if you end up being someone whose order is not able to be fulfilled,
please look for a small thank you gift in the mail.
again thank you so much
this is something that joe, angela and i worked on together to make and it was
incredibly satisfying and doleful.

PROBLEM with super deluxe

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 23:08:00 +0000

sorry i am not so great at the interbot and

(wow !!!! thank you)

the super deluxe sold much faster than i had could keep up with counting before i was able to take it down

i will leave this up to a vote

more than 21 people (actually almost all the orders)

were for the super deluxe with the blood t shirt

either~

i can make more of the shirt, that means it will be less rarified by about 20 copies. (downside)

but everyone who wants one can get one. (upside)

i can figure out a way to make it work that only the first 21 people get a shirt.

please write

xiuxiuforlife@gmail.com

and let me know what you would like.

and thank you again so much!!!!!!!!

xiu xiu interview

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 03:36:00 +0000

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iaG-OW7x8vw

Jocelyn Hobbie

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 00:29:00 +0000

Jocelyn Hobbie

break ups

noreply@blogger.com (angela) — Sun, 31 Jan 2010 22:16:00 +0000

one time when i was going through a break up talk, he got out his bb gun and started shooting the wall of the kitchen with it. he also started shooting bbs into my cup of coffee until the cup cracked. we didn't say anything for about 10 mins while he just kept shooting his gun. then i asked him if he had anything to say, he said nothing. i drank the last of my coffee, spat out the bbs into his cup, then left.

another time with someone else, i was staying in his apartment with a friend while he was at his mom's house. after we broke up on the phone, i got bags and bags of balloons and bottles of wine. all night my friend and i drank wine and blew up hundreds of balloons to fill his apt. in the morning, i put his apt keys into one of the balloons and we left.

then there was the time that i said i love you, and she said she loved me too but had to go back to her long-time partner. i felt like shit for more than one reason.
also, that one time that my boyfriend cheated on me multiple times and then asked for an open poly-amorous relationship, the girl that he slept with dropped off flowers and a hand-made card at my place. that was confusing, and i still felt like shit.

last time, i changed out of my clothes and put on his clothes, jeans, shirt, sweater, socks, underwear, beanie before i left.

i'm still not quite sure if i'm doing this right, but i'm pretty sure i'm getting better at it.

a.e.m. # 10 brown

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 19:30:00 +0000

A.E.M. #10
BROWN
WENT OUR TODAY
PLEASE EMAIL
XIUXIUFORLIFE@GMAIL.COM
F YOU HAVE ANY PROBLEMS

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 03:52:00 +0000

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tanned tin festival castello, espana

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Wed, 27 Jan 2010 07:17:00 +0000

JAN 30
S30SalaOpal
13:00CHING CHONG SONG
13:35JAMIE STEWART
14:25JOE PERNICE

2nd xiu xiu single from Dear God, I Hate Myself

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 06:08:00 +0000

2nd xiu xiu single,
"Gray Death" from Dear God, I Hate Myself
to be released on itunes
tuesday jan 26th
on bended knee this new single presents you with a scroll upon which are etched its demands! heed them!!!!!

new xiu xiu single on itunes

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 19:38:00 +0000

hello again
the first single from the new xiu xiu record,
Dear God, I Hate Myself
is available today on itunes.
and it is for thee, that it awaits!

what were you doing january 15th?

noreply@blogger.com (Jamie) — Wed, 20 Jan 2010 07:33:00 +0000

Sunday 17 Janauary: 8 killed

Baghdad: 1 by bomb
Buhruz: 3 by gunfire
Mosul: 3 by gunfire
Kirkuk: Body found

Saturday 16 January: 4 killed

Baghdad: 3 by gunfire
Al-Zab: 1 by magnetic bomb

Friday 15 January: 0 killed

No-one killed

Thursday 14 January: 33 killed

Najaf: 27 by bombs
Mosul: 2 by gunfire
Khalisiya: 1 by magnetic bomb
Baquba: 2 by bomb
Khalis: 1 by gunfire

Wednesday 13 January: 10 killed

Saqlawiyah: 7 by suicide truck bomb
Baquba: 1 by gunfire
Edhaim: 1 by gunfire
Abu Ghraib: 1 by bomb

Tuesday 12 January: 5 killed

Sadiyah: 4 by car bomb
Basra: 1 by hand grenade

Monday 11 January: 3 killed

Mosul: 1 by gunfire
Kirkuk: Body found
Al-Mussayab: 1 by gunfire

and while you are trying to remember, regarding civilian deaths in Afghanistan~

"Militants were responsible for 55 percent of the deaths, but an additional 39 percent of the victims were killed by coalition and Afghan forces, said the report by the U.N. Assistance Mission in Afghanistan."